Eating habits
05.07.02 // 10:09 p.m.

I have terrible, unhealthy, absolutely no good eating habits. I think if I did not have to nourish myself for survival I wouldn’t eat anything besides Golden Delicious apples, arroz, aguacate, mangos, fidello, bolillo y papas.

So, how bad are my eating habits? Well, a nutritionist would probably freak out if she knew what I ate on a daily basis.

What I have consumed today thus far: one (1) Golden Delicious apple #4021 and one (1) bag of Snyder’s of Hanover honey and mustard flavored bread things.

That’s it.

Okay, so you’re probably wondering, ‘does she have an eating disorder?’

Well, I’ve wondered myself. See, when I was more freaked about my weight I even contemplated the idea of making myself throw up. I scratched that thought because vomiting is too damn painful and messy. Now, I just put off eating while studying, working or doing ten other things. I’ll say I’m too busy to eat and then I don’t want to eat anything on campus because it doesn’t appeal to me.

In the morning I’ll try to grab fruit or a granola bar if its available. I’m always in a rush and don’t even have time to brush my hair sometimes. I’ll hold off on lunch until the hunger gets to be too much or I give in and buy some unappealing and over-priced food on campus. If I’m not too lazy, I might even have cereal when I get home at night. That’s the daily routine.

I wasn’t like this until fairly recently. I ate well at home and I still do when I’m around there, Mom and Mamá Toní make sure of it. Mamá Toní goes so far as to make me whatever I want or she’ll bring me my favorite fish from Tijuana.

I ate alright when I lived in the dorms, but the only thing there was that I often ended up eating a late dinner, which isn’t much different than now. There I didn’t have to worry about cooking, which I suck at.

I don’t think I do this because I want to be thinner. I know that’s not the right way to do it. I have lost some weight since I got to UCLA though, something people don’t expect since they think buffet style dining halls will certainly lead to the freshman 15. I don’t really know what my problem is but I know that Mamá Toní would freak if she knew.

There’s a rumbly in my tumbly and I have a headache. I need to eat.

Addendum: the interview was alright though I should have been more prepared. The committee consisted of the following folks who are all good friends of mine: Antonio (chair of the committee) Henry, Ome, Nahui (the MEChA internal vice chair, good friend, and Liz 4), Lil’ Vane (the Chicana/o Studies coordinator) and Claudia (acting Gender and Sexuality coordinator and secretary/treasurer). I should know by Friday what their decision will be.

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